Guys, I’m totally stressed. There’s too much going on. I hope work will not always be like this. I hope I get along better with my boss. Not that we have conflict, but our work styles are so different I feel like she secretly disapproves of me, which makes me really anxious. I have performance anxiety. If I make the tiniest mistake, I’ll feel like I’ve failed everyone. I’ve been told I need to just loosen up. I can’t loosen up! I need to do a good job! Okay…. breathe….
Okay, I really do need to loosen up. It’s hard for me. Tomorrow, I need to have a gong fu session with some of the Verdant Tea that came in for me. That should help. :) It’s too late for caffeineful tea tonight.
I did have some of this tea at work today. To be honest, I was too busy and distracted to notice the taste too much. It’s tasty, as always. The same few leaves stayed faithfully by my side all day. I just filled my cup over and over again. yum. I am grateful for tea because even if I’m not paying attention to it, I know it soothes me just enough so that I know that things will get better.
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It’ll be ok! Tea will help you relax :) Weekend gongfu is getting to be a ritual for me too: “Yes! I don’t have to go to work1 I can make tiny tea all day!”
I know exactly how you feel re: your job darling!!!
Things are going to get better, I swear. Just keep breathing, come to work and do your best – don’t try to imagine when your boss is thinking – there’s no way to tell! She could be thinking that she wishes she had your ethic and enthusiasm and awesomeness, or she’s super excited to have you but doesn’t want to play favourites so keeps it neutral – or so many other things! All you can control is what you do – put a smile on and be awesome because I know you are. PS mistakes happy to everyone, it just means you’re human! That doesn’t mean they aren’t stress inducing, but you’re not the first one to do it, so it’s gonna be OKAY! HUGS!
I understand about job stresses too and I know it’s not fun. I hope things look up for you :)
It seems that not too long ago I was sending some uplifting words to people about their job stresses. hah! This new job is intense. Thank you all. You’re so lovely and supportive. I probably should refrain from writing this stuff here, but I find it really therapeutic. I’ll stay more tea focused for tomorrow. The only problem is, I ordered 14 samples of tea from Verdant. Where to start??? I pretty much got one of everything that wasn’t in the Alchemy line. :D
My daughter has these same issues with “perfection” and that is one reason she quit her second job the other day. She freaked out big time over something pretty much unimportant but she gets so focused on things and thinks she needs to read a book on every detail. It is an anxiety issue. Most people can simply glean over things and not care but she CARES (too much) and that is how you sound to be as well. I am so sorry you are going through this hard time sweetie. You are not alone. PM if you need to talk! I have some experience in that and can relate though my daughter. You are loved!! And to us, you are PERFECT! xox
Thank you Azzrian. You are really sweet. :) I’ll certainly consider PMing you next time I need to let it out. I love this community!
It’ll be ok! Tea will help you relax :) Weekend gongfu is getting to be a ritual for me too: “Yes! I don’t have to go to work1 I can make tiny tea all day!”
I know exactly how you feel re: your job darling!!!
Things are going to get better, I swear. Just keep breathing, come to work and do your best – don’t try to imagine when your boss is thinking – there’s no way to tell! She could be thinking that she wishes she had your ethic and enthusiasm and awesomeness, or she’s super excited to have you but doesn’t want to play favourites so keeps it neutral – or so many other things! All you can control is what you do – put a smile on and be awesome because I know you are. PS mistakes happy to everyone, it just means you’re human! That doesn’t mean they aren’t stress inducing, but you’re not the first one to do it, so it’s gonna be OKAY! HUGS!
I understand about job stresses too and I know it’s not fun. I hope things look up for you :)
It seems that not too long ago I was sending some uplifting words to people about their job stresses. hah! This new job is intense. Thank you all. You’re so lovely and supportive. I probably should refrain from writing this stuff here, but I find it really therapeutic. I’ll stay more tea focused for tomorrow. The only problem is, I ordered 14 samples of tea from Verdant. Where to start??? I pretty much got one of everything that wasn’t in the Alchemy line. :D
My daughter has these same issues with “perfection” and that is one reason she quit her second job the other day. She freaked out big time over something pretty much unimportant but she gets so focused on things and thinks she needs to read a book on every detail. It is an anxiety issue. Most people can simply glean over things and not care but she CARES (too much) and that is how you sound to be as well. I am so sorry you are going through this hard time sweetie. You are not alone. PM if you need to talk! I have some experience in that and can relate though my daughter. You are loved!! And to us, you are PERFECT! xox
Thank you Azzrian. You are really sweet. :) I’ll certainly consider PMing you next time I need to let it out. I love this community!